{"id":3409,"date":"2012-12-06T03:16:26","date_gmt":"2012-12-06T07:16:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/?p=3409"},"modified":"2014-01-01T06:20:36","modified_gmt":"2014-01-01T10:20:36","slug":"tersten-bak-ve-hakikati-gor","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/2012\/12\/tersten-bak-ve-hakikati-gor\/","title":{"rendered":"TERSTEN BAK ve HAK\u0130KAT\u0130 G\u00d6R"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong><a href=\"http:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/07\/siir_gibi.jpg\"><img class=\"alignright  wp-image-2797\" title=\"siir_gibi\" src=https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/07\/siir_gibi.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"576\" height=\"225\" \/><\/a>Hep ayn\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015f, ayn\u0131 toslay\u0131\u015f, ayn\u0131 da\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u015f&#8230;<br \/>\nHer \u015fey ayn\u0131, peki ama de\u011fi\u015fen ne?<br \/>\nSadece mekanlar ve zamanlar farkl\u0131.<br \/>\nHissedi\u015fler, duyu\u015flar, y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131\u015flar ise hep ayn\u0131.<br \/>\nKader deyip ge\u00e7elim mi, elimizin yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilelim mi?<br \/>\nArt\u0131k y\u0131prand\u0131m, bir daha kald\u0131rabilir miyim?<br \/>\nYeniden ba\u015flama cesareti bulabilir miyim?<br \/>\nBa\u015flad\u0131m diyelim nereye kadar, 1 ay m\u0131 3 ay m\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nTam y\u00fckselmeyi deniyorum, iki kanat a\u00e7\u0131yorum.<br \/>\nHay\u0131r u\u00e7mazs\u0131n diyorlar, burada u\u00e7ulmaz.<br \/>\nYa u\u00e7anlar diyorum, onlar nas\u0131l ba\u015fard\u0131?<br \/>\nCevap yok, s\u00fckut&#8230;<br \/>\nVelilerin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015f\u00fc yaz\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f.<br \/>\nYa da yazanlar hep onlar\u0131 havada g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fler.<br \/>\nElbette onlar\u0131nda dibi buldu\u011fu anlar olmu\u015ftur.<br \/>\nAdem bu! kayan ve d\u00fc\u015fen varl\u0131k.<br \/>\n\u00dczg\u00fcn\u00fcm dostum istikrar\u0131 yakalayamad\u0131m.<br \/>\n\u00dczg\u00fcn\u00fcm asgari \u00fccretli devaml\u0131 bir i\u015f bulamad\u0131m.<br \/>\n\u00dczg\u00fcn\u00fcm bir baltaya sap olmad\u0131m.<br \/>\nSenin ad\u0131na \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyorum, kendi ad\u0131ma ise ne hissetsem bilemiyorum.<br \/>\nBiliyorum ki yolun yar\u0131s\u0131na geldim.<br \/>\nBu sayfalar harici bir eser b\u0131rakamad\u0131m.<br \/>\naltm\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u00e7 \u00a0ya\u015f\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131 bana g\u00f6re yolun yar\u0131s\u0131.<br \/>\nAhmet Yesevi de\u011filim altm\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc ge\u00e7sem de topra\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131na giremem.<br \/>\nBir h\u00fcnerim yok, bir ka\u015f\u0131k bile yapamad\u0131m.<br \/>\nE\u011fitti\u011fim bir e\u015fe\u011fim bile yok, yesevi gibi yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m ka\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 satacak.<br \/>\nSomuncu Baba gibi mum alevinde ekmek de yapamam.<br \/>\nNe ilim var ne dilim.<br \/>\nBu ya\u015ftan sonra b\u00fck\u00fclmez belim.<br \/>\nB\u00fcy\u00fckler diyor tamamen hi\u00e7 olmak laz\u0131m.<br \/>\nAcaba ben orada m\u0131y\u0131m?<br \/>\nB\u00fct\u00fcn var san\u0131lan\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131p<br \/>\nT\u00fcm hesaplar\u0131 bitirmeli miyim.<br \/>\nNe kadar \u00e7ok a\u00e7\u0131k defter var hayat\u0131m\u0131z da&#8230;<br \/>\nM\u00fcflis bir tacir misali elde defterler.<br \/>\nAt hepsini ate\u015fe ve sonra kendin atla olmaz m\u0131?<br \/>\nKimse bir \u015fey yapmad\u0131 bana, benim yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan \u00f6te.<br \/>\nBelki biraz ara yazmaya, ya\u015famaya, hayata&#8230;<br \/>\nsadece sus ve dinle!<br \/>\nBenim hesab\u0131m kendimle.<br \/>\nHen\u00fcz k\u0131rk ya\u015f\u0131ma gelmedim, nedense bekliyorum.<br \/>\nHer zaman an\u0131 ya\u015fa deriz ya ne kald\u0131 k\u0131rk ya\u015fa&#8230;<br \/>\n\u0130limde yok bilimde, alimde de\u011filim zalim de<br \/>\n\u0130\u015fte garip bir kul her \u015fey ortada<br \/>\nselam Dosta, dostuma, dostlara, arkada\u015flara, d\u00fc\u015fmanlara&#8230;<br \/>\n<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Yazar\u0131: Cihad Meri\u00e7 \/ be\u015f y\u0131l \u00f6nce 33 ya\u015f\u0131nda yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2797,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[182,112,217,20,35],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3409","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-gunce-gunluk-notlar-defter","category-medeniyet","category-kirk","category-gunce","category-siir-gibi"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3409","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3409"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3409\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3506,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3409\/revisions\/3506"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2797"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3409"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3409"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3409"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}