{"id":2171,"date":"2011-01-30T11:28:45","date_gmt":"2011-01-30T15:28:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/?p=2171"},"modified":"2014-01-01T06:19:34","modified_gmt":"2014-01-01T10:19:34","slug":"kirk-3-bolum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/2011\/01\/kirk-3-bolum\/","title":{"rendered":"K\u0131rk \u2013 3. B\u00f6l\u00fcm &#8211;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/01\/gunce.jpg\"><img class=\"alignright size-medium wp-image-2172\" title=\"gunce\" src=https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2011\/01\/gunce-300x228.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"228\" \/><\/a>Birlikte ate\u015fin ba\u015f\u0131na ge\u00e7tiklerinde demlikteki suyun kaynad\u0131\u011f\u0131 fark etti. Suyun bir k\u0131sm\u0131yla \u00e7ay demledi, bir k\u0131sm\u0131yla \u00e7orba kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00f6pekler i\u00e7in lapa yapt\u0131. Koyunlar ve e\u015fek tabiat\u0131n nimetlerinden faydalan\u0131yorlard\u0131. K\u00e2inat, insan dengeyi bozmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcrece mahlukat\u0131 doyuruyor, a\u00e7l\u0131k sadece insana mahsus bir durum mu?<\/p>\n<p>Misafirine kimsin, nas\u0131l geldin, ne i\u015f yapars\u0131n demedi? Kendisinin de en sevmedi\u011fi bu tarz sorular\u0131 bazen dalg\u0131nl\u0131kla birilerine sorsa da hi\u00e7 sormam\u0131\u015f olmay\u0131 ye\u011flerdi. Ne i\u015f yapars\u0131n, kimlerdensin, nerede oturuyorsun?..ve benzeri sorular \u00f6nem arz etse de g\u00f6n\u00fclden tan\u0131\u015fmak i\u00e7in perde olabilir. \u201cHer p\u0131nar\u0131n bir sahibi vard\u0131r .\u201d diye akl\u0131ndan ge\u00e7irdi. Acaba destursuz girdi\u011fi i\u00e7in bu adamdan \u00f6z\u00fcr m\u00fc dilemeliydi? Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerden de vazge\u00e7ti. Akl\u0131na gelen her d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncede kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndakinin k\u00e2h g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi\u011fini k\u00e2h y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn as\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etti. Hem kalbini hem dilini hem de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerini tutmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini anlad\u0131. Piri Fani \u201cHepsi iyiler.\u201d dedi ve ekledi: \u201cMerak etme sadece seni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorlar. Onlara d\u00f6nece\u011fin an\u0131 bekliyorlar. \u0130lk yolculu\u011fun de\u011fil ki son olsun.\u201d Bir anda yine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerini toparlad\u0131. \u201cEn zoru d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerdir.\u201d dedi. \u201cD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere hakim olmak her \u015feyden zor. Konu\u015fmay\u0131 terk edersin, diline de hakim olursun; \u015fehvetten de uzak durabilirsin, beline de hakim olursun; bedeni a\u00e7 b\u0131rak\u0131rs\u0131n, nefsine t\u00fcmden hakim olursun. Fakat d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek bile ayr\u0131 bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedir. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek? Beyni a\u00e7 b\u0131rakmak?<\/p>\n<p>Pir&#8217;in \u201c\u00c7ok bilgili oldu\u011fun i\u00e7in mi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc zannediyorsun. Hayat\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fti\u011fin \u00e7oban\u0131n senden daha zengin d\u00fc\u015f d\u00fcnyas\u0131 vard\u0131.\u201d dedi\u011finde sevincinden arabaya nas\u0131l ko\u015ftu\u011funu bilmeyen \u00e7oban akl\u0131na geldi. Pir \u201cHayatta en zor \u015fey insanlar\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerini okumakt\u0131r.\u201d dedi\u011finde kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndakinin kendisinden bir ad\u0131m \u00f6nde oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Bir ad\u0131m \u00f6nde olmak, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri okumak?<\/p>\n<p>\u201cD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerini okudu\u011funu zannetmekte tehlikelidir. Oldu\u011fun yerde bir s\u00fcr\u00fc kurgu yapars\u0131n. Ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n yerine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme, sadece kendin i\u00e7in d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn.\u201d Pir \u201cKendin i\u00e7in d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmenin bencillik oldu\u011funu da nereden \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131n.\u201d dedi. \u201cBa\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcnah\u0131na a\u011flamak her yi\u011fidin harc\u0131 de\u011fil. Herkesin k\u00f6r noktas\u0131 vard\u0131r. Zaten hep o k\u00f6r noktadan vuruluruz.\u201d \u201cBen d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum o s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor, daha \u00f6nce hem d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr hem de kendimle konu\u015furdum.\u201d dedi. Benim k\u00f6r noktam neresi?<\/p>\n<p>\u201c<strong>Her \u015feyi bir gecede \u00f6\u011frenemezsin.<\/strong>\u201d C\u00fcmlesi merakl\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini ve beynini kapatt\u0131. \u201cUzun bir yoldas\u0131n her p\u0131nar ba\u015f\u0131nda beni bekle.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cK\u00f6y tabelas\u0131n\u0131 fark edemeyen ara\u00e7 h\u0131zla tabelaya \u00e7arparak \u015farampole yuvarlanm\u0131\u015f. Yoldan ge\u00e7enler taraf\u0131ndan ara\u00e7tan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131lan ki\u015fi ambulans ile \u015fehrin en yak\u0131n hastanesine kald\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. \u00dczerinde bulunan telefondan yak\u0131nlar\u0131na ula\u015f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f.\u201d c\u00fcmleleri yo\u011fun bak\u0131m \u00fcnitesi \u00f6n\u00fcnde konu\u015fan iki ki\u015finin yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7en herkes taraf\u0131ndan duyuldu. E\u015fi, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131, i\u015f arkada\u015flar\u0131, dostlar\u0131 yo\u011fun bak\u0131m \u00fcnitesi penceresinden onun ya\u015fam m\u00fccadelesini izliyor. Hepimiz yo\u011fun bak\u0131m \u00fcnitesinde de\u011fil miyiz? Herkes kalp ritmini g\u00f6steren cihaz\u0131n kendine has sinyal m\u00fczi\u011fini dinliyor. Ritim, h\u0131z ve m\u00fczik. <strong>Yava\u015fla kalbim yava\u015fla biraz.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Vasiyeti ile noktalanan defter, e\u015f ve \u00e7ocuklar\u0131na teslim edildi. E\u015fi, kendisine verilen defteri s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 tutarken sadece dua ediyordu. Nedense g\u00fcncenin son g\u00fcnlerinin tek okuyucusu olan e\u015fi kalp ritimlerini saymaktan g\u00fcnceyi okumaya f\u0131rsat bulam\u0131yordu. \u00dc\u00e7 bin y\u00fcz k\u0131rk sayfa&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Yo\u011fun bak\u0131mdaki adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcnde tatl\u0131 bir tebess\u00fcm vard\u0131. O sanki yolculu\u011funa devam ediyordu.<\/p>\n<p><strong>E\u015fi kendisini biraz toplay\u0131p g\u00fcnceyi aralad\u0131.<\/strong><br \/>\nBor\u00e7lar, alacaklar, al\u0131nacak kitaplar, seyredilecek filmler, dergi i\u00e7in sorular, \u00e7\u0131k\u0131lacak yol planlar\u0131, \u00f6nemli telefonlar, seksen bir ilin yan\u0131nda yazan birer isim, arkada\u015flar, dostlar k\u0131saca <strong>iyi adamlar defteri<\/strong>. G\u00fcncede son yapraklardaki i\u015f planlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u00f6yk\u00fc dikkatini \u00e7ekti ve ard\u0131ndan e\u015finin kendisine mektup olarak b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 son sat\u0131rlar\u0131 okudu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c<strong>Hani baz\u0131 hikayeler vard\u0131r; hi\u00e7 bitmesin isteriz.<\/strong> Sonradan bitti\u011finde nas\u0131l olsa hikayeydi deriz.<br \/>\n\u0130\u015fte bizim hikayemizde b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey. Bir g\u00fcn bitecek. Nas\u0131l ki g\u00fcnce yapraklar\u0131 kitap sayfalar\u0131 bitiyor, hayat da bitecek.<br \/>\nTeknoloji ar\u0131za yapmasayd\u0131 belki de g\u00fcnce bitmeyecekti. Bozulan laptop g\u00fcnceyi bitirdi, zaten \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken de bitirmi\u015fti.<br \/>\nYeni bir defter alaca\u011f\u0131z, \u00f6nce g\u00fczel g\u00fczel yazmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131z. Eski g\u00fcncedeki bir tak\u0131m bilgileri aktaraca\u011f\u0131z.<br \/>\n2006 Recep ay\u0131nda ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f defter. 2009 Recep ay\u0131 i\u00e7erisinde bitiyor. Tam \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l gizli sat\u0131r aralar\u0131nda.<br \/>\n\u00dc\u00e7 uzun y\u0131l. Di\u011fer defterlerle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde onuncu defter. \u0130lk defterin kay\u0131t y\u0131l\u0131 bin dokuz y\u00fcz doksan sekiz yani toplamda on iki y\u0131l gizli sat\u0131r aralar\u0131nda.\u201d<\/p>\n<p><strong>Kalp ritim sinyali yava\u015f at\u0131yor; fakat hal\u00e2 at\u0131yor.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Garip yolcunun kimse nereye gitti\u011fini anlamad\u0131. O anayoldan nereye gidiyordu. E\u015fi i\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmesine gitti\u011fini sand\u0131, patron acil bir i\u015fi \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f olabilece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Yaz\u0131c\u0131lar kayda almasa kim bilebilir ki hayat\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc.<br \/>\nHikaye p\u0131nar ba\u015flar\u0131nda devam etmeli.<\/p>\n<p>A\u015fkla\u2026<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/2010\/08\/kirk-1-bolum\/\">Hikayenin 1.b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc<\/a><br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/2010\/11\/kirk-2-bolum\/\">Hikayenin 2.b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc<\/a><\/p>\n<blockquote><p>matbu : <a href=\"http:\/\/www.kurtubadergisi.com\/\" target=\"_blank\">kurtuba dergisi<\/a>\u2019nin 7.say\u0131s\u0131nda yay\u0131nlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<br \/>\ninternet: sanal alemin en edebi edebiyat sitesi <a href=\"http:\/\/www.sayhadergi.com\/3285\/kirk-%E2%80%93-3-bolum\" target=\"_blank\">sayha dergi<\/a>sin&#8217;de yay\u0131nlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/lh3.googleusercontent.com\/_7kefLd_arfw\/TUWBdMqJ36I\/AAAAAAAABAk\/8Hu0YrurvDY\/s800\/gunce.jpg\" alt=\"guce\" width=\"525\" height=\"399\" \/><br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2009\/12\/gunce.jpg\"><img src=https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2009\/12\/gunce.jpg\" alt=\"\" title=\"gunce\" width=\"640\" height=\"250\" class=\"alignright size-full wp-image-2642\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2642,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[130,217,204,42],"tags":[6],"class_list":["post-2171","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-hayat-hikaye","category-kirk","category-manset","category-yol-hikayeleri","tag-cihad-meric"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2171","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2171"}],"version-history":[{"count":14,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2171\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3683,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2171\/revisions\/3683"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2642"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2171"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2171"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kainatamektup.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2171"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}